?

 Because its hard for me to explain.

(what's wrong with you? what happened? r u okay? how are you? 

what do you think? What are you afraid of? 

sick but healthy,  

hungry but no appetite, want to be taken by God but afraid to die

want to go to mom but how? feeling like crazy ppl but not crzy,  

want to speak up but how?)

blablablablabla

Oh Allah, i miss my psychiatrist.